Birthday cake and kitchen tiles

I have great parents, they're the sort of people who are always there for us. Over the last few weeks Mum and Dad have been great in helping us getting our new kitchen in and sorted out. Tomorrow they're coming over to help us put the tiles up in the kitchen.

The other reason for them coming over is its Dads Birthday on Sunday, so we're going to have a BBQ tomorrow night to celebrate and a Birthday cake. This afternoon I'm going to be making a cake for tomorrow and icing it with buttercream icing. I'll have to take a photo of it to show you. I'm going to limit myself to one slice tomorrow and then Mum is taking it home with her. I'm really looking forward to baking in my new kitchen. I'm also making a tomato and pepper soup for lunch, mmmm tasty. It's funny, I get a new kitchen and suddenly I want to cook!!

I'll also have to post photos of the new kitchen, but I don't want to do that till it's finished. So, after work today Chris and I will be going to look at tiles, and then shopping for ingredients for cake and soup. Then we're going to have to get dad a Birthday present, and do lots of cooking, while at the same time tidying up and relaxing.

Procrastination

Why do we procrastinate?

 

For the last few weeks every day I've been saying I'm going back to my healthy eating regime, and that I'll exercise too, but then I never start it.

I've come so far, lost over 7 stone in weight, and want to lose more, not to be a twiglet or something, just to fit into a size 14 (UK sizes), but I keep on putting it off.

I really need to get my head together and get on with it.

So, instead of saying I'll do it and then doing nothing about it, I've decided to be honest with you, say that I'm struggling, but that I'm going to try my hardest from now on. It won't be easy, it never is, but I will try my hardest to stay on track.

I've not got far to go, how hard can it be?

So, tomorrow it begins, you can say that's procrastination, but I have half of the pudding Chris made for me last night in the fridge, and it'd be a shame to waste it.

Gaming relieves stress

Well, I got home last night and felt awful, really stressed out and down, but Chris came home with lots of love and support and I soon felt a lot better. Chris had brought me a tasty pudding, heat magazine, and then prepared me a really tasty dinner.

Chris had also picked himself up a copy of Beatles Rock Band so I watched him play that a bit, and then pushed him off to play Rock Band too. There is no better therapy than mashing away at the drums to Paramore songs. I really need to get me some pink drumsticks. I progressed onto hard mode last night, I'm not very good at it but medium is too easy for me.

Gaming really gets the stress out of my system.

I also had a run around on Call of Duty 4, trying to work my way back up to prestige mode before the sequal comes out. One game I'm really looking forward to is Wet, I am hooked on the demo, and can't wait for it to come out. It's has a girl as the main character, and the gameplay is mostly sword and gunplay. It's out here next Friday and looks like it's going to be a lot of fun.

Anyhow I'd better go for now, got lots of work to do. I might update again later if I get time.

Welcome to all my new readers.

Helen x

Supporting People is Hard

Supporting people is hard.

For the last two days I have been the victim of a torrent of aggression and abuse.

I find myself sitting here feeling hurt and angry that somebody would be so aggressive and horrible to me. I feel upset and down about it. I know that the person hurting me needs help, support and love to get them through what they're going through. They say I'm not supporting them enough, but I don't feel I have anything left to give. I feel as if I am failling a a friend, to somebody who I wouldn't actually say is a friend to me. Somebody who I don't really want to support but I have to because of circumstances. When all I really want to do is to tell them to grow up, get themselves together and to leave me alone.

Sorry for the rant, I just felt I had to get it out of my system.

Dreaming dreams from the heart

Looking to the future, I've been thinking what I want from life. I guess that a lot of the things I was are purely selfish, and self centred. But I figure that's the same for most people. I love my home, and really feel it's coming together nicely, but there's so much more needs doing. Those little jobs that I always procrastinate about, and the other things that need doing and yet are too expensive.

I am so blessed to have such a great husband, Chris is wonderful, and makes me really happy. I feel so happy that he's mine. I want him to be happy and settled in a job that he enjoys, and I hope that the job that he's doing becomes the one that he loves and really enjoys. Chris is an amazing guy who makes me really happy.

What else do I want? Well, eventually in the right time I want to have a family. I want it to be in Gods time. I am sure that Chris would make an amazing father. I just trust that in at the right time God will make it clear that we should start a family.

Friends, I have two very special friends, Emma, and Emma (yes, sometimes I wonder why my best mates both have the same name). I love spending time with both of them, they're both so different from each other. I hope that in the future these relationships will grow and develop. I have a wider circle of friends, some that I trust with things I hide deep in my life, and others who I see in a more social way. I hope that I can bless my friends as much as they bless me. My other good friend Jo is in New Zealand at the moment, I miss her, but I hope she has a great time.

I want to be a size 14 (that's a UK size 14 for those American readers out there). I'm bordering between a 14 and a 16 at the moment, and I am really trying to push myself to lose that bit of weight to be comfortably in a size 14. I seem to have lost the plot a bit with it recently, but I want to get down to a 14 and stay there.

What else do I dream? Happiness for my family and friends. I want the people I know to feel happy and fulfilled. I think when the people around me are happy it'll be much easier for me to be happy.

Girlie times, and celebrating six years of marriage

Hehe I'm hopeless at updating this blog, so this could be a long post, here goes. Lots of things to update.

It's been a busy summer, but things are good, I've had a wonderful time catching up with friends and enjoying their company and having fun. The summer fun kicked off with a surprise trip to Birmingham shopping, I went to meet Emma in the Bullring for a coffee, we ended up going to Selfridges and having a very large, tasty ice cream sundae (as seen in the picture in the previous post). We then went for a wander around the city centre and did lots of girlie shopping.

A few weeks later I hosted a girlie night at our house, we were going to have a BBQ but because the weather was predicted to be bad we decided to have a buffet instead. We ate outside around the firepit and had a lovely night. It was good to catch up with people and say thanks for the support they'd given me when I had my depression.

The week after that I arranged a surprise trip for Emma and I to go to Birmingham to have a relaxation day. We met in the city centre and then headed to the Sensory Spa I'd booked us in for the use of the facilities, with a facial and scalp massage included. It was a lovely, relaxing time, when we experienced the steam room, swimming, jacuzzi and generally felt pampered. After that we went to Pizza Express for lunch and then chilled out around the town, shopping and having coffee. Later on Chris picked u up from town and took us back to Tim and Emmas to get ready to go out in the evening. That night we went to Ziizii's at the Mailbox and had a fantastic evening, good food, good drink and even better company. An excellent day, one to be remembered in the future as a special time.

The other big event that has happened in the last few weeks is that we have had a new kitchen. Technically it's not a new kitchen but one given to us by my Aunty as she was getting a new one. But to us it's new, and looks fantastic. I'm loving having a kitchen to cook in and to bake. This weekend I started to make meals at home to freeze for lunches during the week. This week I'll be enjoying Leek and Potato soup, stew, pasta bolognaise and vegetable soup.

Last weekend Chris and I celebrated our sixth wedding anniversary with a lovely trip to Manchester for the weekend. We spent time shopping, chilling out, eating out and going to the cinema. All of the meals were lovely especially on our actual anniversary when we went to the Hard Rock cafe for dinner. We had a lovely time, drank some very tasty cocktails, and eat to yummy food. A fantastic weekend with a gorgeous husband!

Life is pretty good, I'm happy and busy. Need to get exercising again, but otherwise am doing great. Feel blessed to have such a great group of people around me and an amazing husband!

Ice cream....

MMMM Emma and I went to the ice cream parlour in Selfridges, Birmingham....



















It was tasty!!!

Films, gardening and holidays...

It's Monday morning, and I have that Monday feeling. Had a great weekend although I wish the weather was better, so I could have got into the grden more. I love being able to spend the weekend relaxing with Chris. This weekend we rented some blu ray films and watched them, they were on offer in Blockbuster, we rented: Taken (excellent Liam Neeson movie, 10,000 BC (which we haven't watched yet), Max Payne which was pretty good, and Push which as a fan of Heroes I really enjoyed. I think we're going to watch 10,000 BC tonight.

Life is good right now, I've been saving up money, and have made enough money through Amazon sales to take Chris, Mum and Dad on holiday to Spain in October. We're off to LLoret De Mar which is where Chris and I went in May. Staying in the same hotel as we stayed in when we went there in May. It'll be the first time Mum and Dad have been to Spain so I hope it goes really well. We're doign everything we can to make it really special for them. We're hoping to spend a day in Barcelona when we're there and go on lots of walks. I love the food when I'm abroard (unsurprisingly) and I love eating out in the local resturants. I can't wait. I'm really trying to get into shape again for the trip but am finding it a bit hard to at the moment. I'll get there though. We've got travel scrabble and uno to play when we're there to keep us busy.

I've been busy in garden recently, Mum and Dad have bought us a patio and put a path in down to the bottom of the garden. It looks lovely, and we have a beautiful arch on the entrance of the garden which I'm growing two clematis up. I love my garden, when I was suffering with depression I found that it was the place where I could relax most and also I felt really close to God as I looked at the beauty of the garden. I get lots of birds and butterflies in the garden and find it to be a place where I can relax and switch off. Here's some pictures from the garden:



Anyhow, I'd better sign off for now. Thanks for your comments and texts after my last blog, it's good to see people read this. Keep in touch :)